Retired on 40, the last 10 years it has been an extreme obsession. My wife has been very patient with me on this, as she knows my "buddies" that are leaders, mentors and hands on helpers have been super good to me. Very fortunate to be in a situation I can ask, receive and give at the same time. These are my State guys that have treated me as one of their own for going on 38 years now.
The last 5 years, these people have actually reached out to me for advice and help, the point at which I realized my take and experience meant something to them. Given that, this is a hard pill to swallow.
I feel you on the syncope, That's been a fight I am also battling, due to extreme PVC's and bricked nerves, but I consider myself the frog in the Heron's neck, my hands are tight around his neck..
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